ALL YOU HAVE IS NOW

I was staring at my phone cursing time zones across the world and waiting for texts from someone I MIGHT LIKE (or am I just bored???) and it hit me like a brick. 

Bam.

Ouch lol. 

The self-loathing that comes from having your self-worth depending upon someone else. 

WHAT AM I DOING?? WHY AM I LIKE THIS??

Do I want to live with this clingy, pathetic vibe?? 

(YEAH NO)

Or do I want to feel happy, carefree, and secure IN ME AND WITH ME??

Just waiting for texts back made me NOT like myself. 

It made me REALLY NOT like myself. 

Also some guy got me talking yesterday and I was telling him HOW MUCH I LIKE CHANGE and how I keep striving to change. 

ALL THE DAMN TIME.


BECAUSE LIFE IS SHORT AND IT SUCKS. 
Unless you do something about it.
And it's not forever LOL.


There. Imma hit you with that truth. 


~Insane Little Brunette, telling you that all you have is now.