DEAR FUTURE LOVER, I HAD A PANIC ATTACK AHA.

Shhhh.

It's ok :)

It's ok. 

I was having a panic attack a while ago. 

I bought something today and I had to give my credit card to this saleswoman because the card machine was connected to the wall (but it didn't accept all credit cards so she had to check if mine would be accepted) and she had it with her for like 10 seconds and her back was turned to me and I was HUGELY UNCOMFORTABLE and I felt LIKE AN UTTER F***ING IDIOT.

I bought it earlier today but I had the panic attack a while ago with insane thoughts of credit card fraud running through my mind

I mean nothing is obviously going to happen because the place I went to is a well-known and trusted place, so B*TCH BETTER MIND HER OWN BUSINESS AND DO HER OWN F***ING JOB. 

I couldn't even get up from the bed, this feeling just took over me, my chest was hurting, I couldn't breathe properly, my mind clouded over and I was just shifting around A LOT and found myself wishing more than ever that I had my "someone special" to be near and help me calm down.

He's with me. Not near me, but with me.

So I hugged the pillow hard. Eyes shut tight. And held my own hand. <3

Shhh. 

It's ok. 

Honey, I dealt with it :) . By myself. 


I hope you're proud of me.

Xoxo

Insane Little Brunette.