IN LOVE WITH A GUY I DON'T KNOW

I want to sprinkle magic all over the world

I am always haunted by the idea that I am someone greater.

Someone MORE beautiful.

Someone with more character and a BOMBASS personality.

Someone who can really get the body she wants if she puts in a little more work.

Haunted by the idea that I gotta work harder, but not the way everybody else at university is working.

Since I clearly belong somewhere else.

Haunted by the idea that I am yet to find out who I am but this journey will always be beautiful (w) even though at times I can't see it's beauty (like, when stupid guys don't text me back and I feel moody and depressed af)

I'm listening to "Sing me to sleep" by Alan walker. 

"Anywhere anytime, I would do anything for you ooooo oooooo; you oooooo oooooo"

And this makes me realise how tiring not having the right guy in your life can get sometimes.

I wonder if my lover is pining for me the same way that I am longing for him.

I am tired of having questionable crushes on guys who have a girlfriend, guys who're not LOOKING for a girlfriend, guys who text back late or without interest, guys who live far away, and guys who don't deserve me. 

I am tired of my temporary feelings for all these people lol. Temporary because I am training myself to "move on" as fast as I can 'cause ain't NOBODY got the patience for a wrong one. 

...

Honey, where are you?

Xoxo, 

Your Insane Little Brunette.