I AM NOT SOME HELPLESS B*TCH

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The world feels like a chaotic mess.

Or maybe it's just me.

Nobody I know is separating lies from truth.

Or maybe it's just me.

Bravery.

I feel like nobody really knows me.

They think they do. And sometimes, I think they do. But they don't.

They know an easy-going, happy-go-lucky ambitious girl.

They know an obedient, by-the-rules, kind, friendly, nice girl.

Oh but that's not who I am.

They don't know the thunder inside me that shakes me to the core.

I am proud of that thunder.

This is probably why I have been unable to actually fall for any guy as of yet.

Because he doesn't know me . Nobody knows me.

Hell I myself don't even know me. I'm getting glimpses and visions of what's in that island inside me and what I see amazes me.

I see dark black nights.

I see flashing swirling lights from a lighthouse in heavy storms.

Who I am right now is not reality. This monotonous, complaining and helpless bitch will never be me.

I see demons.

And I like them.

I feel at home with them.

They're not bad creatures.

They're mystical and mysterious and grand, like pillars of strength 

Feminity.

Every new demon I see makes me question who I am.

I am beyond mortality.

There are worlds no one has ever seen or heard of.

And maybe those worlds exist inside my head.

But they exist.

I like it. No, I love it.

Magical and electrifying places.

Xoxo

Insane Little Brunette