PANIC CONTROL

I was panicking 5 minutes ago. 

I opened my book, and I was studying about the brain and stuff. Only I was panicking from within and trying to control the panic instead of running around here and there (not that I'm saying that is wrong).

I sat on my bed, clutching my highlighters, the book open on my lap, and trying to breathe calmly. Blinking calmly. I wanted to write to you but I really wanted to calm myself first. Note- All this literally happened 10 minutes ago. 

I stared at the open book and I realised nothing was going into my head. And I suddenly thought, "You know what?? I don't have to study about the brain. I'll come to this later. Let's open a fresh new chapter.

And I flipped to "Chapter 19 - Endocrine System". 

Better. I breathed a little more calmly. I sat in silence. I put on this song (mentioned below) and I started writing to you. 

I'm really glad my panic lasted for a really short while. Phew. 

"I wonder if the stars sign

The life that is to be mine

And would they let their light shine

Enough for me to follow

I look up to the heavens

But night has clouded over

No spark of constellation

No Vela no Orion

The shells upon the warm sands

Have taken from their own lands

The echo of their story

But all I hear are low sounds

As pillow words are weaving

And willow waves are leaving

But should I be believing

That I am only dreaming"

~ Enya.

Xoxo

Insane Little Brunette 

[ BG MUSIC - "Anything Is", Enya 🌸🌸🌸]